Here is the prompt I worked on last night:
You wake up one morning to find that you are your three year old self, with your parents again, with all of the memories and experiences of your current life. Write this scene and express the emotion and frustration your character undergoes as you internally try to sort this out.
My response:
You were three when the owl box was hung. The tree stood about a hundred feet from the living room window. It would be good for owl watching, your father had said. Later that night when you and
your sister still believed an owl would come to the box and were checking it
every few minutes, she said that it had been there for 100 years and it was
very, very old. You asked her what was very old. “The tree, silly,” she said
nudging you playfully with her elbow. “If Daddy cut it down, we
would be able to count the circles inside to know how old it really is. Maybe
it’s more than a hundred. Maybe it’s two hundred!”
You recall that conversation as you look at
yourself in the bathroom mirror. As you attempt to conceal another sleepless
night, you realize: circles don’t tell shit about age. Circles tell pain. Pain
that goes around and around like the amusement park ride that spins so fast it
doesn’t even matter when the floor drops out from under you because you’re stuck
to the wall. You can’t move. You haven’t been able to move for thirteen years.
Now you realize you have run out of concealer and you have to be at school in 15
minutes. You leave with one eye uncovered. Unprotected. This lack of protection
is just enough of an opening for the hand of time to slip through and return you
to your third year of life.
You understand you are not really three again.
You vaguely wonder if you've slipped into some other dimension, one that includes
time travel and rabbit holes. You don’t much care; those aren’t the answers you
seek. Six months have gone by since the owl box was hung. Like an unfulfilled
promise, it hangs in the air crooked and empty. Your sister has all but
forgotten it, but you occasionally still look. You are only three, yet you have a
patience about you, one that is grounded in hope.
This time when you’re three and you see your
father crying at his desk or in the kitchen when he believes he is alone, you
don’t get scared and run to your room. This time you go to him and crawl into
his lap. You ask him what’s wrong. You put your head on his chest and your arms
around his neck. You feel his stubbly beard poke through your hair as he rests
his chin on your head. His soft lips, the ones he would very soon wrap around
the barrel of a gun, kiss your forehead. You wait for him to answer.
Thirteen years later, you are still waiting.
Waiting for the owl, and for something to fill the empty space. You have a
patience about you. You are beginning to understand: it is this patience, this ability to wait, that will keep you moving.
Wow! Pretty DEEP!
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